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Raya

Hello. 

Raya is just around the corner. 

Who else miss their childhood raya? I do. 

I remember going back to Alor Star every raya. I remember having to berbuka puasa in the car oh wait, or was it sahur in the car, in massive traffic jam.

I remember collecting duit raya from house to house, one end to the other end. 

Oh. I also remember that we will get one pair of shoes, sponsored by Pak Tam. 

I remember sleeping in one room w my parents and siblings. 

I remember the need to share toilet in the morning. 

I remember walking down the stairs smelling raya food *drools*. 

I remember going to relatives houses and the non-stop-eating, ahh those good food. 

I remember the night before raya, playing fire crackers, sparklers and sweat like crazy. 

I remember taking crazy photos. 

I remember on second day of raya every year we’ll have open house and almost all the relatives will come visit. 

I remember that I got quite a lot of duit raya. Lol. Best time of the yearrr. 

I remember we will have a trip to somewhere few days after raya. Tasik Pedu, Padang Besar,  Penang, where else? Hmm. 

I remember taking family photos, grandparents with their children, grandchildren. Family photos. Cousins photos. Girls photos. Boys. There were tonnes of photos. 

I remember clearly Tok Ba will sit on that chair and observe everyone while wrapping his cigarettes. Raya is really different without him. I miss you dearly *cries*. 

I definitely miss going back to Kampung for Raya. Definitely. 

I hope and wish that my kids will have the same memories. 

Also, I think I should have kid(?) already << will have to talk about this on a different post. 

Have a pleasant and enjoy your raya guys! 

Hello back.

Hi there. Longest silent, ever.

Im going to start blogging again, since I think Facebook, Twitter and Instagram is not the place to blab.

I miss writing.

So, my last writing was about.. deferring my housemanship.
And here I am back after 2 years plus, completed my housemanship in one piece and surviving MO-ship. Haha, never thought that I can complete my housemanship, and being an MO is harder than it looks like, though. Will I get through this, as well? Huh.

Okay, now should I continue blogging or, Wordpress-ing? lol
I need a place to blab via mobile.
And need to brush up my writing skill.

Till then, toodles.

defer defer defer.

So, my last post was about peeps who got placement for their housemanship training (while I was eagerly waiting for my training)
And, my last draft was about my SPA interview (LOL), turns out I was so lazy to update. So yeah, this is a new post.

And today, e-housemen is open for May intake.

and guess what. OMG, I have so much that I didn't post lol.

I AM GETTING MARRIED. hahahaha. FUNNY. Its weird. Its just.. unbelievable.

Yeah, akad nikah is on 21st of May 2016. And, worst part is, PTM is 23rd of May.

So guess what I choose? To defer my housemanship training. Sucks I know.

I was in dilemma for over weeks. Even until today! It was the biggest decision I had to make. It was really hard for me to decide. Really. Who would say no to a job that comes to you? Hah. haha. But I did.

I hope it is a wise decision, and I'll not regret. May Allah ease my journey.

So I am getting older huh. Getting married, and get a real job.

18 days to go. and 2 months to go. I shall wait with great patience.

ALL THE BEST TO THOSE WHO ARE GOING TO START THEIR HOUSEMANSHIP!

Congratulations!

CONGRATULATIONS 

to those who got placement for your housemanship training!

I am one step closer to getting my placement! And yes, I am nervous.

It seems like placement for Sabah is also limited. Hmm, what will me second choice if Sabah is full? No idea. Maybe I should just stay in semenanjung, so that I can spend time with my family, and not to worry about moving back to semenanjung when I get married (hm, when is that? lol).

Guess, JB is my next choice, and maybe Melaka. Or maybe Ipoh. Gotta set my priority after my interview.


Interview is in less than 36 hours! Im friggin nervous. Pray for me! ><

People and blog

Sometimes, when I linger around someone's blog, I feel connected. Though he/she is a total stranger. But it feels like I definitely can click with this person.

It has been really quite sometime since the last time I stalked someone's blog. Cause, twitter and instagram let you know the person better. I guess. lol

Can anyone just tell me that SPA interview is easy peasy. kbye

Preparing for SPA interview

So, interview is in... 6 days? Mixed emotions.. Really T_T

I never liked history subject. But now, I have to study it, for the sake of the interview. Well, I dont know what they will ask, so have to read everything (to improve my general knowledge as well, so yeah).

I failed my history subject during highschool for each and every exam. But got an A though for my SPM lol, I was pretty shocked though. Went and see my teacher and she said "told you that history is EASY". Nope, it wasnt.

So, when I entered foundation, we had to take history subject.. again. Oh, I got a B. lol. AND I thought my suffering days ended, it didn't huh. Well, I guess it never will.. Cause I'm gonna have to tell my kids about the history in the future. So. Hm.

It really a tough subject.

I am indeeeeeed nervous for my interview. lol.

Wish me luck!

The Return of Me

So hello, Im back!

Its been really quite a while since the last post tho.
My life has been better? Not busy? Haha.

I am done with my degree! Phew! Done!

Currently waiting for my SPA interview in like... 8 days? Wish me luck!

I will definitely update about my professional exam in the next post. Or maybe after my SPA interview post..

It feels lame, after like a year plus not blogging.

So there's this lecturer indirectly said to me that I have some sort of personality problem. I mean, he didnt directly say it, but he was like talking about it and somehow relate it to me.

Yes, I've been sitting at the back of the class, corner of the class or smthg. But, its not because I dont socialize, its just, i prefer to sit alone during classes, so no one will interupt me, like asking "eh apa doc tnya tadi" or "apa dia?" or "how to spell that thing?" smthg like that that disrupts my focus. Not that I know everything, I dont know things too. And I just write whatever that I feel like writing. Things I try to memorize suddenly goes away and I just cant recall. And I hate it. So it is okay to stay at the corner of the class once in a while, or smtimes. Well, it doesnt matter, most of the time, too.

Though I do realize that recently, I've been keeping a distant with some people. I used to be the talkative one. But now, I prefer to just keep silent. I mean, I feel like there's a no need to talk about things that people just dont give a shit.

Everyone has their own way of seeing things. My view is from my side, and your view is on your side. So what ever shit you wanna say based on your view, is up to you.

All I know is I can't wait to finish studying.

Kagum dgn doktor-doktor yang boleh mengajar pelajar perubatan

The life in HSB and HTAR is totally a diff one. We actually learn more from the docs in HTAR instead of HSB. Or maybe just this current posting. But I know that my knowledge is lacking when Im at HTAR, not that Im saying Im good in HSB, its just that, my knowledge is not being challenged there. Anyhoos, as medical student, I should learn things on my own, read more things.

Oh well, EOP for surgery starts tomorrow, May Allah ease our journey. All the best 4th year! :D

I wish we could go back to the times where we make mistakes and we could  correct our mistakes, and everything will be better. Perfectly better.

But life just doesn't work that way. So all I can do is move forward, never give up (even if when it gets rough) and do what ever my heart says.

EOP is in a week. All the best!

So dead, or work harder?

So, they said medical students will not get a job by next year. I am going to graduate only in 1 and half year. I am so dead.

So probably to get a job is to get good result.
Be a better student, I mean an excel student to get a job. Not a better job, but to get a job. We medical student don't need a better job like other professions, there are no such thing as better job in medical field. So yeah, if you graduate as an MBBS student, you get a degree to work as a doctor. Nothing more or less.

And previously, they dont need extravaganza stuffs in the resume, as long as you pass yr MBBS programme you can work. (I guess it goes that way tho, if Im wrong, please correct me). But I think for future graduates, we should get better performance to get a job.

So yeah, lets work harder and strive for excellence to a level that they don't have a reason not to give us the job, in simple, means they want us to be part of them cause we are awesome and brainiacs.

All the best to medical future-grads :)


http://www.nst.com.my/nation/general/no-jobs-for-medical-grads-next-year-1.396549

Siapa cakap study medic, dapat pass pun ckup? There's two different meaning for "cukup". Yes, cukup utk nak dapat scroll masa grad ckp "this person has graduated from MBBS".. But, cukup ke ilmu di dada nak rawat patient?

I had this so called "kesedaran" when I passed my third year and getting in fourth year. Everyone says, cukup lah pass je, xdistinction pun.. I was one of them. But during the long holiday, it strikes my mind, it is easy to pass but will I be able to be one successful doctor in the future? Getting a certificate with flying colours pun, if we can't apply what we study, if our brain cannot think on its own, whats the purpose of getting good grades kan?

My point here is, I need to get my ass on my books.

I'm just another 1 and half year away to graduate(insyaAllah), but am I preparing myself for the future? Or I just want to pass with lack of knowledge? The choice is in my hand. Never too late..

Tolonglah study at least sejam sehari sebelum tertidur. Even though bak kata this doc "you have to study at least EIGHT hours a day". I wish my day has 72 hours per day. I wish.

Sometimes,

 all you need is someone to be there even though you know

that person was never there,

and never will.

But, you were caught in the middle of nowhere,

and gets nowhere.

Its.. heart breaking.

 

What would you do if you know someone lies to you, yes directly to your face.

But you didnt have the guts to say "I know you are lying to me". You simply just cant say it, just because..

 

How does it feel like to lie to someone who is important to you?

Or probably they arent?

But you pretended like they are.

 

Somehow, someday, it will reveal. Or probably, times up, no chances anymore. Time to say goodbye.

 

 

-Goodbye-

 

Ps; do you know that I can tell when something is up?

Because my instinct never fails.

They said ignorance is a bliss. Indeed they are right.

I have learned that someone who loves you will always be with you without any excuse. Not even the smallest one.

 

 

What if one day you wake up realising the person who means the world to you is gone?

 

 

Its been really awhile since the last post. I do not have anything to share, anymore.
But, here's a little update.

First thing ever, Alhamdulillah I have passed my third year though not flying colours. But still passed. Will try harder in future, insya Allah. And, congrats too to all my other friends who passed, see you in a week :)

Secondly, thank you dad for sponsoring half for my new lappy. I now have no reason that having a small screen makes it difficult, or uncomfortable to read slides. Have gotta work harder and get better result, and memorize things. 2 more years to end my study, so really gotta start working my ass off. Insya Allah, May Allah ease.

Thirdly, I have spent quite a nice holiday, well 2 months of holiday. Though I did not have any cool vacation, except Langkawi, but, I had a nice one, spent it with the people I love. Holiday is going to end in a week or so.

Fourth, my first posting will be surgery. Goodluck!

Okay, penat type guna laptop ni sebab space dia mcm..mengstresskan.

-I have learned that you can actually love someone, even with their deepest fu*king flaws-

Exam in a week! I am so dead. Not prepared at all, especially primary care and psychiatry. I dont really have the interest in both of them even though they are interesting, even the lecturers are cool. But. I feel like its too hard. Probably its because both of this postings takes only 4 weeks, well psychiatry only 3  weeks tho. So I feel like they are too short to digest everything in a month or less. Anyways, all the best, may Allah ease the way.

BUT, lepas exam, cuti. Wohoo! Can't wait for hols, really.

Raya! Langkawi!

So, in Sept probably need to prepare for 4th year, I.Allah kalau lepas 3rd year ni.. (AGH).

Pharmacologgyyy and anatomy and physiology kena mantapkan. But in one month, mcm impossible :( 

And oh, gotta hit the track lepas exam, losing weight is a must haha -__- 

Okay, selamat berpuasa btw! :)