Siapa cakap study medic, dapat pass pun ckup? There's two different meaning for "cukup". Yes, cukup utk nak dapat scroll masa grad ckp "this person has graduated from MBBS".. But, cukup ke ilmu di dada nak rawat patient?

I had this so called "kesedaran" when I passed my third year and getting in fourth year. Everyone says, cukup lah pass je, xdistinction pun.. I was one of them. But during the long holiday, it strikes my mind, it is easy to pass but will I be able to be one successful doctor in the future? Getting a certificate with flying colours pun, if we can't apply what we study, if our brain cannot think on its own, whats the purpose of getting good grades kan?

My point here is, I need to get my ass on my books.

I'm just another 1 and half year away to graduate(insyaAllah), but am I preparing myself for the future? Or I just want to pass with lack of knowledge? The choice is in my hand. Never too late..

Tolonglah study at least sejam sehari sebelum tertidur. Even though bak kata this doc "you have to study at least EIGHT hours a day". I wish my day has 72 hours per day. I wish.

Sometimes,

 all you need is someone to be there even though you know

that person was never there,

and never will.

But, you were caught in the middle of nowhere,

and gets nowhere.

Its.. heart breaking.

 

What would you do if you know someone lies to you, yes directly to your face.

But you didnt have the guts to say "I know you are lying to me". You simply just cant say it, just because..

 

How does it feel like to lie to someone who is important to you?

Or probably they arent?

But you pretended like they are.

 

Somehow, someday, it will reveal. Or probably, times up, no chances anymore. Time to say goodbye.

 

 

-Goodbye-

 

Ps; do you know that I can tell when something is up?

Because my instinct never fails.

They said ignorance is a bliss. Indeed they are right.

I have learned that someone who loves you will always be with you without any excuse. Not even the smallest one.

 

 

What if one day you wake up realising the person who means the world to you is gone?

 

 

Its been really awhile since the last post. I do not have anything to share, anymore.
But, here's a little update.

First thing ever, Alhamdulillah I have passed my third year though not flying colours. But still passed. Will try harder in future, insya Allah. And, congrats too to all my other friends who passed, see you in a week :)

Secondly, thank you dad for sponsoring half for my new lappy. I now have no reason that having a small screen makes it difficult, or uncomfortable to read slides. Have gotta work harder and get better result, and memorize things. 2 more years to end my study, so really gotta start working my ass off. Insya Allah, May Allah ease.

Thirdly, I have spent quite a nice holiday, well 2 months of holiday. Though I did not have any cool vacation, except Langkawi, but, I had a nice one, spent it with the people I love. Holiday is going to end in a week or so.

Fourth, my first posting will be surgery. Goodluck!

Okay, penat type guna laptop ni sebab space dia mcm..mengstresskan.

-I have learned that you can actually love someone, even with their deepest fu*king flaws-