Sometimes, things aren't easy the way we think they are. No, they aren't. So many obstacles, too many. No, maybe just one, but its too big. I couldn't get through it, I don't know how. I just can't. I have no super power to do so, I wish I have them, but I don't. But I know, Allah knows the best. "Kun Fa Ya Kun"


So why do we expect something and put high hope? Just do your part and let Allah show you the way. If ever things don't go the way you want them, remember, Allah has better plan. The best plan. Though sometimes, it takes some time, but somehow its the best. Always.

It has been quite some time, and I just can't tell what lies in the future. I wish I could, but nope, I can't and it is kinda.. disappointing.

Sometimes, the person that we wanted to understand us the most isn't the person who does it. Sometimes they are the opposite of what we hope they were. 

Long journey to go, i.Allah if there's a will, there'll always be a way. In Sha Allah. Lets just pray for the best.

They said, the best way to relieve stress is to"accept that you cannot change certain things".

First rotation examination result is out today. So yeah, Alhamdulillah, I passed my Medicine posting. Though I kinda flunked like damn flunked, but I am thankful that I passed. Sedih sebenarnya, sedih sangat2 result macam tu. But nak buat macam mana, sapa suruh tak study kuat2 -__-

Risaunya Surgery's.

O&G ni, dah la susah! Walaupun menarik, but susah! Semua benda nak lain. Hahaha. And my friend told me this story, ada sorg doctor ni masa dekat clinic, dia tanya "what is IE?", so one of my friends said "infective endocarditis" sekali kena "kepala hotak kau" HAHAHA. Yes, in medicine IE is infective endocarditis, but in O&G, IE means, Impending Eclampsia. Sungguh, memalukan. Tak apa, belajar dari kesilapan.

I.Allah ada usaha nnt adalah buahnya. 

ALLAH berfirman bermaksud:"..Dan Kami pasti akan uji kamu dengan sedikit rasa takut , rasa lapar, kekurangan harta, kekekurangan nyawa dan kekurangan buah-buahan. Dan berilah khabar gembira kepada orang yg sabar..".
[Al-Baqarah: 155]

Oh, I've gained size, weight(?) Nope, just my size. So yeah, I should get on diet like seriously. I've been saying this for ages, but I have never tried working on it to make it successful. No, I do not want to be anorexic, just to go 2 sizes down. But how? I am not the typical girl who gets mad when someone says "Farah, you are fat". I felt nothing. I mean, I don't have the I-MUST-NOT-EAT-SHOULD-STARVE-SELF-TO-BE-SKINNY kinda thing like most girls do, and I really hate it. Come on, I need that so I can be the girl who can be on diet like seriously on diet and get tensed up when someone says Im fat. Its not that I don't care but I just can't take it to motivate myself to start reduce my size. Cause, when I'm stressed or F-ed up, I eat like nobody's business, and I do not regret for eating one tub of ice cream, or cakes, or whatever that's fat-ish (fat-ish? lol)

Im bored and I dont know what to update, so thats why I haven't been updating since forever. So this is just a lame story that I have and sorry to waste your time over this not-beneficial-stuff. Oh I wonder if there are people who reads my blog. LOL. I am such a bore. Thanks for reading loyal readers :)

Sometimes, I wish things were different. Totally different.

If and only if we could turn back the time..

EOP SURGERY EXAM

End of posting exam is in 2 days plus. OSCE on Monday, MCQ, MEQ and SEQ on Tuesday, and finally clinical day on Wednesday. I am not ready, and I can never be ready. As what Dr.H said, learning medicine will never get you to finish reading and remember everything even if you finish with your MBBS course. And, the other lecturer, Dr.P said that MBBS is the basic course in medicine. So, these, what I'm learning are just basic, and yet I could not finish reading and remembering all. Hm.

Well, lets just pray for the best. Classmates, housemates and batchmates, All the best. May Allah ease.

And, I can't wait to meet Aazhiv next weekend! Wohooo!:D Im a happy aunt! ;D

7 days to EOP exam

I'm dead. Seriously. I am not ready for this surgery exam. Sebab, pergi clinic Doc tanya soalan first year, suruh explain pasal kidney, anatomically, blur, tak boleh jawab. Then pergi OT, kena tanya pasal inguinal canal, tersenyap lagi. Apa yang ada dalam ingatan ni, hanyalah 1%. Lagi 99% tu mana pergi, tak tahu :(

Then exam kali ni macam x boleh predict what kind of questions Doc akan suka tnya, sebab kurang BST. Lepas tu apa pun macam tak ingat. Sigh. Terasa anatomy sangat teruk. Ugh.

Oh I went to see 2 ops. Appendectomy and herniactomy. Both are awesome. But herniactomy made me feel like surgery ni interesting jugak sebenarnya. Ye lah, sebab sebelum ni terasa like medicine yg paling best. LOL. But the surgeon made me realise that surgery ni sangat lah cool. I learnt a lot from her. She's good, and I hope I will be like her, someday, Amin..

Kalau nak cerita what happened from A-Z, mata ni berhenti kerja dulu sebelum tangan. 

Ok, nak tidur. Bye!

Can I pretty pweeease have a new casing for my baby X? :3

Malaysia tak banyak jual casing for X. Sobsobsob. Semua iphone jer. Booorrriiiingggg.